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2004-11-11 - 12:56 a.m.
dammit
The Nine Greatest Songs of All Time (Right Now)
1. Jay-Z/Linkin Park
"Jigga What/Faint"2. Ken Stringfellow
"You Become The Dawn" 3. Dolly Parton
"Jolene" 4. Nelly
"Na-Nana-Na" 5. Skeleton Key
"Vomit Ascot" 6. Mudhoney
"Touch Me I’m Sick" 7. Lionel Richie
"All Night Long (All Night)" 8. Mario
"Let Me Love You" 9. Soul Coughing
"The Incumbent" |
It happens every semester, and every time I say it won’t happen again, and it always does. I fall behind in a class, and decide that it’s either impossible to catch up to the point that I can pass, or not worth the effort and decide to drop it to give myself more time to focus on the other classes. Probably more than half of the semesters of my college year, this has happened. And every time I do it, it’s a waste of money and effort, and it puts graduation a little further away. I only needed 8 more classes for graduation, so my plan was to take 4 in the fall and 4 in the spring, which is a relatively light load. Now I’m dropping down to 3, which means that I have to compensate by taking a full load of 5 in the spring, or squeeze in a winter minimester class. I really want to graduate in May. This sucks. The truth is, I really could’ve put more time into my classes, especially the one I just dropped. But it was a Geography class, I picked it kind of randomly to fill a gen. ed. requirement just because I have a vague interest in Geography. But there were some assignments that were just like pulling teeth to me, and I really couldn’t stand the professor. So by the time I made the decision to drop it, it was really just a relief to let myself off the hook, because every fiber of my being was saying “fuck this”. It’s been getting harder and harder for me to focus on school. I have all these outside distractions, the fact is I’ve never been a good student. But mainly it’s that I work too damn much. Before this past weekend, I hadn’t had a day off in 3 weeks. Every single day I was working a shift at one of my jobs, some days both of them. I’m so fucking exhausted. I’ve really been trying to scale back on work, too. For about a month straight, I only worked one night a week at the sub shop. But lately I’ve been getting a little more hours there, and I’ve been getting a ton of hours on campus. And this has all come right at the point in the semester when it’s make or break time. And I was falling a littl behind in all my classes, but one more than the others. Something had to give. This sucks. I’m just venting right now, but this sucks. I have to graduate in May. I have to get this done, so I can get my piece of paper and never have to do homework again. -al
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